My Life Is Fucked

Hey,

so i haven't posted recently 'cause  alot has been going on, i'll start with the most recent issue,

basically i got caught smoking on school grounds (this is 9 days before i leave to thailand on a SCHOOL trip), i dont even know why i was smoking on school grounds, i have plenty of opportunities to do it elsewhere, so basically i've been told by the head of middle school that if i get into trouble for one more thing (anything) that i will be expelled, no questions asked, and this causes problems with my other most recent issue...

so you may have read the blog i posted about being sorry to a girl about how i felt about her relationship choices. all of that, basically, i didnt say anything to her, but then she kept asking why i didnt like the guy, i finally told her under the circumstances she didnt tell him, because i have enough problems without getting into a fight (and possibly seriously hurting someone). so she promised she wouldnt say anything to him, about two days later i get a text from her "**guys name** knows", i asked how he knew, she says that she told him so there is issue number one that i have: COMPLETE betrayal of my trust.

second issue, that guy being the guy he is "everything he does is always right and he never makes mistakes" kinda guy Denies everything i said, and claims im lying, now, that would be fine with me(although i believe what i said to be correct and im going to stick by that) however he then went on to his 3 or so friends that go to my school and proceeded to tell them that i lied to his girlfriend in order to break them up because i'm jealous, that in itself is immoral and something i would NEVER EVER do. if that wasnt bad enough he goes onto my friends (those who he thinks are his friends) and tells them im a lying dickhead who cant be trusted, (he's a complete idiot because he didnt quite consider the fact that my mates might actually tell me what he's been saying? strange isnt it. basically, all he has achieved is making my mates think he's a douchebag and making me angry at him for being such a bitchy little girl about it all.

how does this tie in with the previous issue, he keeps trying to front with me and cause issues, and i cant do anything about it (violence wise, because i promise you, that if was to get violent with him, it wouldnt be a simple hit, i would relentlessly hit him until every bitchy part of his body was knocked out of him) so basically he has me at a stalemate, if he hits me, i cant hit him back, it would either make me look stupid, or make him look like an asshole like last time he hit someone (a guy who is now his ex-bestmate, and as it happens, resents him with every bone in his body)

so what am i to do? jus take it? cause thats all im going to be able to do for now.

i fucking hate my life

talk later guys.

MESSED UP

Hey 

so first off, Im going to apologize to someone, who knows who they are, because i was pretty rude to her about her personal life, and i feel really bad, (i know you will read this so yeah), i just wanted to get it off my chest, because its been bugging me, so dont think i was just being an asshole cause i can, its your choice to whom you do stuff with, and i shouldnt and wont anymore criticize you, because i shouldnt be putting stress on you, but the things i said, i meant, and im not the only one who thinks that, so as a final word im jus going to say, please think about what i said. please.

anyways, snuckout last two nights in a row, got pissed both nights, smoked as much as an industrial chimney, didnt get caught, 

so yeah

catchya guys

both nights were sick as hell

Hey again guys.

so here i am sitting at home, its about 8:20pm on a friday night.

ive organised a sneakout to go crash at a girls house who you will soon come to know as CC

im meeting up with some mates at about 12 and were walking there, ive got absynth(OHMYGOD, isnt that stuff illegal?!? hha got it from amsterdam) and were gonne get fked up on our way there

so right now im sitting in front of the TV waiting for the time to come where i open my bedroom window and casually stroll out the front to meetthe guys,

cant bludy wait, so i thought id do some quick blogging to pass the time

so the other weekend i went and saw the movie defiance, and my dads ancestors were ukrainians who were actually in the beilsky otriad, so i thought it was really cool to have a hollywood insight to what they were up to!, you see for me its hard to find anything out about them because they destroyed all family records in 1939 because they saw the holocaust coming, smart bastards, i look up to them so much, they mustve been some of the most respectful, honest, fucking legends ever, and it wouldve been amazing to meet any of those people, its a shame i cant.

ill catchya guys.

Bored.

Hey,

So here I am sitting at home, alone.

I felt like shit all of yesterday, i feel like shit now, so yeah, i stayed home today, i also managed to get out of my music performance, where im supposed to be playing the solo to
heartbreaker by led zeppelin.

aint no way im gonna be able to play that fully without Fucking up. i got last nights lasagne heating up in the microwave, im watching "parental control" on MTV, its the Ad break and "day n nite" by kid cudi is playing, its a cool song :P

so i was bored so i grabbed the laptop and decided to write this, i dont really have much else to write.

sounds like the lasagne is done heating,

i'll catchya.

Sick!!

Hey guys,

well Before i get going, i have something to say, !!FIRST POST!!

:P

I'm not sure what i hope to achieve by blogging, but i dont know, something to help vent my teenage frustration, something so let me open up and confess all of my wrongdoings ;)

Well i guess i could start off with explaining what kind of guy i am?

For a start Im from Australia, i live in a hole, i guess im a kinda bogan, wear flanno's, winfiled, like VB, love the footy (any contact sport i guess), I'm the kinda bloke who will down alot of alcohol, usually unnecessarily. when it comes down to it i can be pretty paranoid about who my real mates are, and it takes ALOT to earn my respect, i can do some dodgy things, and i dont really think about consequences, I'm not very close to my family, friends are alot more important to me. I've done ALOT of things i regret, and alot of things that i should regret, but dont, love me or hate me, thats who i am.

yeah my family try to keep close to me, but i dont relate to them, i just push them away really.
im sitting on the couch, typing this, and theres some jerry lewis/dean martin, like 60's comedy thing, its fucken stupid.



So whats my most recent fuckup?

well i bought some of the ol' green stuff and the only way i could pick it up was at school, i'm not sure how but a some kid saw the deal go down, and went and told the headmaster (what a fuckwit hey?, if i ever meet him, he's fucking dead), i got suspended for 4 days
(only? haha, i know i expected expulsion or something)
basically, my parents have stopped trusting me altogether, cause over the past months, i got caught sneaking girls out of the house after they stayed the night, i got caught for smoking (twice, fuck giving the habit up, i like it), i got caught for sneaking out cause i talked about it on facebook and my rents (that means parents, you'll get used to me using that) saw it on my wall, so i pretty much got fucked over.
not sure what else to say, but i dont respect my parents, they dont trust me, thats the extent of our relationship.

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