My Life Is Fucked

Hey,

so i haven't posted recently 'cause  alot has been going on, i'll start with the most recent issue,

basically i got caught smoking on school grounds (this is 9 days before i leave to thailand on a SCHOOL trip), i dont even know why i was smoking on school grounds, i have plenty of opportunities to do it elsewhere, so basically i've been told by the head of middle school that if i get into trouble for one more thing (anything) that i will be expelled, no questions asked, and this causes problems with my other most recent issue...

so you may have read the blog i posted about being sorry to a girl about how i felt about her relationship choices. all of that, basically, i didnt say anything to her, but then she kept asking why i didnt like the guy, i finally told her under the circumstances she didnt tell him, because i have enough problems without getting into a fight (and possibly seriously hurting someone). so she promised she wouldnt say anything to him, about two days later i get a text from her "**guys name** knows", i asked how he knew, she says that she told him so there is issue number one that i have: COMPLETE betrayal of my trust.

second issue, that guy being the guy he is "everything he does is always right and he never makes mistakes" kinda guy Denies everything i said, and claims im lying, now, that would be fine with me(although i believe what i said to be correct and im going to stick by that) however he then went on to his 3 or so friends that go to my school and proceeded to tell them that i lied to his girlfriend in order to break them up because i'm jealous, that in itself is immoral and something i would NEVER EVER do. if that wasnt bad enough he goes onto my friends (those who he thinks are his friends) and tells them im a lying dickhead who cant be trusted, (he's a complete idiot because he didnt quite consider the fact that my mates might actually tell me what he's been saying? strange isnt it. basically, all he has achieved is making my mates think he's a douchebag and making me angry at him for being such a bitchy little girl about it all.

how does this tie in with the previous issue, he keeps trying to front with me and cause issues, and i cant do anything about it (violence wise, because i promise you, that if was to get violent with him, it wouldnt be a simple hit, i would relentlessly hit him until every bitchy part of his body was knocked out of him) so basically he has me at a stalemate, if he hits me, i cant hit him back, it would either make me look stupid, or make him look like an asshole like last time he hit someone (a guy who is now his ex-bestmate, and as it happens, resents him with every bone in his body)

so what am i to do? jus take it? cause thats all im going to be able to do for now.

i fucking hate my life

talk later guys.